aaah actually a very nice Valentine's Day for the girl separated from the One she loves.

had lunch with my out of town sister, followed by a brief stint of shopping, or looking as we do mostly. or trying on but not buying, as we do a lot of. she is further along her weight loss journey than i. but that journey leaves one with needing to buy clothes that fit now but might not fit eventually. she's lost 75 pounds, and i'm stuck around 35. i just have to get my lazy bum on a treadmill. anyway, while it's good to lose the weight, the mind is not often prepared for the new attention one gets or the body that's ever morphing.

and then i rented some movies and made one of my Honey's favorite meals. shepherd's pie. it IS a weight watchers recipe, but it's good. and warm comfort food.

i failed to mention the Porter chocolate cake she and i celebrated VD with. a local brew pub puts beer in their desserts. go figure. it was good though.

and i watched "In The Cut" with Meg Ryan. a definite departure from her usual appearance or subject matter. i didn't like it at first, but it's been hanging with me a while. i guess it's "noir" like a dark detective story but with the preoccupation of love and passion thrown in. written and directed by women. but grittier than one would expect. dark in subject and appearance. how many women would get involved with a police detective they think is guilty of a brutal murder? is the inner pain that great and they just want it to end? do some of us have a death wish? i used to. was just never brave enough to follow through. or maybe i knew it would pass.

in any event, i've revised my first opinion of the film. i like it, but like spandex, it's not for everyone.

and it's encouraging to watch others do things outside of their typical comfort zone and area of known subject matter. helps me contemplate getting my bum to a gym. which i will be doing this week.

ah, the sun beckons. if nothing more than to sit near the window. it reminds me spring WILL come. someday.