i hate it when the granules of ice melt or salt or whatever the heck it is get stuck in my shoe or boot treads. i track the junk inside, and before i get to the boot tray, it gets around on the carpet.

unfortunately, i have a penchant for going barefoot in the house, even in winter.

bad combination.

ouch!

will someone please explain why one of the best tv shows ever...Northern Exposure is NOT available on DVD?

but all that other trash is?

as far as i'm concerned, any day i look out and see i *don't* have to dig my car out of the snow, is a good day.

but also, today being Sunday, i don't have to go anywhere. so i've decided to challenge myself to make something out of things i have around the kitchen. i adore cooking and trying new recipes, which i've just spent time finding on the food network site. but now i'm going to challenge me to make something good and healthy and all that junk from stuff i have here.

so far it looks like turkey chili is in the lead. yay for a well stocked pantry and spice cupboard.

argh.

the hibernation time of year gets me every time. i feel sluggish and slow and would love nothing better than to sit for long hours in front of the tv and/or new dvd player and not move.

more than that though, i get a bit sad this time of year. is it the SAD thing? the lack of light? could be. or a holiday letdown. could be that as well.

in any event, today i am choosing to count all the good things i've got going in my life, all the strides i've made, growth and change. and even though i still *feel* not quite myself i know that it shall pass. and that i'll be left with the results of all my hard work. and surrounded by excellent friends, family and loved ones. it's like one of those inflatable rafts, it keep me afloat.

and soon i'll be smiling again, which is amazing, because there was a time in my life when i smiled very little.

*sigh*

i found the Paul Newman organic chocolate peanut butter cups...yum. especially the dark chocolate...had 'em once and was convinced i'd never see them again....mmmmm...

it's only 8 pm and i'm so sleepy...could have something to do with the fact that my Honey was here last week, and i took vacation time to be snowbound and housefrau. i loved every minute of it.

so now it's cold and quiet here. but i have a cool mosquito net thing over my bed now with little white twinkle lights in it and a wonderful new relaxation cd with ocean and steel drum sounds. think i'll pretend i'm on a beach someplace for a while.

but...it's such an accomplishment to do something finally that one has never done, something one has wanted to do, read and talked and thought about, wondering if one could do it....and now to know not only that one can do it, but do it remarkably well. such a great feeling. like a full belly, or my Honey's full belly....he does love those chocolate chip cookies, and the pork tenderloin....*smiles that wicked little knowing smile, and knowing he's smiling too....still thinking about it*