Is it rude to NOT want to repeat myself when someone keeps NOT being able to hear me? It gets really old after that person insists they don't need their hearing checked and only seem to have a problem around me.

I'm trying to be understanding. But mostly I wind up saying, "never mind, it doesn't matter." The thing is, it did matter, even if it was me babbling or talking about my new coffeemaker. It did matter or I wouldn't have said it in the first place.

I love him, but things like this make me a little bit unbalanced. Oh, and the smoking thing.

I'm doing my best, but understand if we did live together, things would have to change. Or at least an attempt.

Why does that make me sound b*tchy?

I was willing to change, to quit smoking, to begin to exercise to be healthier and try to lose weight. I don't think it's too much to ask that we BOTH do these things. If it's best for me, why can't it be the best for both of us?

I love him, I just want him to be around for a while.